Wow, okay, honestly a LOT to unpack [partially bc i haven’t been on-tha-ball about updates]. As such, imma write the journal entries with their dates and the relative time/City Project (CP) progress.
First Day, May 22
christian summer camp vibes? check
looking like a good community? yuh
honestly overwhelmed? actually, yeah
however incredibly excited for the changes that God will be making in my life? ô so very much:)
a good bit has happened within the little time that has been CP like making some promising acquaintances, seeing the teaching style ————————
and honestly i’m mentally spent and in a worked headspace ——— which doesn’t happen often! i’m not wanting to take time and get to know my peers, rather, i just want my own space and i want to go and read but those things have not yet happened ——— which just might be God’s next plan to allow me to find rest in Him (something at which i am most terrible!) and to become dependent of Him.
i do, however, think that this may have another undertone/implication, which is that God could be using these feelings for the specific reason of not allowing me to fully focus on relations with other people because too often will i become fixated on someone other than myself or God, and that’s just not what i came here to do —— rather, i came here to be fully and utterly exposed to the Gospel and hopefully WRECKED (wow foreshadowing, won’t He do it) by its presence.
so, ya, it’s the first day and God is already showing me bits of my flawn character. i believe that this will be a great summer for me and my faith!!
bläk
the stutterings of a barefooted boy with a bruised lip 